Friday, February 1, 2013

on not knowing what to do next

Good for your soul.

let's start with that god-awful question.  you know, the one they start asking you in pre-school, as a joke.  the what-do-you-want-to-be-when-you-grow-up question.  when they ask us that when we're younger, they expect us to think of answers that might not be so ordinary.  answers that might not be attainable.  

i always said i wanted to open a store where i sold cereal.  
like what?  i was such a strange kid.

anyway, back then it was a joke.  a question asked to provide humor to everyone else.  the teachers and parents would think the answers were so cute.  the problem is, now when i get asked the question, it's not to find out of the ordinary answers.  it's no longer cute when you say something that probably is not attainable.  but the thing is, unlike my younger self who was convinced i'd sell cereal, i have absolutely no clue what i want to be when i grow up.

the scary part is.... i'm almost all grown up.

i'm now in the beginning of my second semester of sophomore year of college.  and while most of my friends know exactly what they want to be and have a pretty good approach for the next two and a half years on how they plain on attaining their goal.... i have no clue.

i'm currently a psychology and government/ law double major with a spanish minor.  i have no clue what i would do with that after college.  and that scares the c**p out of me.

now is the time in my life where i'm supposed to be figuring it out and i'm so lost.  i spent most of the last year and a half dreaming about one job, only to have my internship this summer make me realize that it is in no way for me.
i don't know if this scared feeling is normal.... but i think i just have to let myself be scared.  i don't know what else there is to do.  


  1. I'm kinda in the same boat! I'm also in my sophomore year, and though I'm pretty confident in my major and what I want to study, I have no idea what I want to do with it! I'm also applying for internships, so hopefully that will help too.

    But I also think that it's sometimes good not to have a plan. If we expect to get a specific job or something like that after college, what happens when things go not as planned? I think it's good to take things one step at a time.

    So, you're not alone with feeling this way! But I wish you luck as you explore options :)

    xo, gina

    1. i agree, one step at a time is completely what we need to do. good luck in applying for your internships! xo

  2. You still have so much time. I'm a second semester junior, with a double major in history and anthropology minoring in Italian and linguistics and I still have absolutely no clue what I want to do. It's totally natural to not know.
    xo, Maria

    1. haha thank you! what a cool major! xo

  3. First of all, selling cereal (if done right) could end up being a preeetty sweet job. Like, ya know, a cereal shop instead of a coffee shop? ;) But seriously - I didn't really know what I wanted to do and who I wanted to be until the end of my junior year of college. I know most people say that's "too late" to figure things out but different people have different ways of finding themselves and discovering what they're truly passionate about. For me, it turned out to be engineering with a side of blogging. And for now, it suffices! Just like taste in clothes (or guys, let's be honest), our passions will change. You just have to wait it out and take note of the passions and interests you have that stay consistent and go from there.

    Do you like writing though? Because I thoroughly enjoy reading all of your posts, especially the wordy ones. Maybe that's something to look into? ;)

    Hope my words were somewhat useful! And enjoy college while you can! xo

    1. thank you so much for this thoughtful post! i do love writing... so who knows maybe ill end up doing something with that :) xo


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