remember potential prom date?
yeah i got sorta rejected.
he said he "might have something going on that night".
and i shouldn't care.
i know he's one silly boy.
but ever since i broke up with summer boy in January,
I've kind of felt defeated.
I had a lot of feelings for Summer boy. More then anyone else.
And it didn't end well.
And I hurt for a long time.
And finally, finally
I had this glimmer of hope.
And so I took a chance.
I went out of my comfort zone.
And I got rejected.
And it hurts.
And listen, I'm not low on confidence. I was never the popular girl that had to have a new boyfriend every month.
But I have been defeated by so many people.
The guys I have dated have cheated on me because I wouldn't "give it up".
The girls I have been friends with have gone behind my back.
And now my one best friend is two hours away. And as many times as I cry over the phone to her it's kind of hard to get a much needed hug from Delaware.
I need to graduate.
I need summer to come.
I need August to come where I can drive my two hours to my brand new school with my brand new swim team and brand new friends.
I need to start over.
I need to start over now.
this isn't about getting rejected.
i don't care.
there's no need to cry about it.
it's because lately,
with my best friend not here, i have been feeling really alone.
and being alone is the hardest thing.